Referral!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last wednesday we got the call that we have been waiting for! It's been 13 months since we sent our dossier over to Ethiopia and now we finally have seen her face! She is beautiful, wish I could share pics but I can't at this time. We are now praying for quick court dates and travel. I am praying for a miracle, that we could even pick her up before Christmas. CS Lewis says that, "A miracle is when God does something that wouldn't happen if he didn't." I want to get her as soon as we can and bring her home. Conservatively, they said we would proabably go in January for the first court hearing and then leave her there (ahhhh!) for six weeks until we come back for the second hearing and then we can bring her home. Praise God that she can feel His love long before she feels ours. We are so excited!!! We may name her Beklyn Grace because it is similar to her Ethiopian name. Please pray we can bring baby Beklyn home as soon as God wills!!!

He has Bid her Heart to Beat

Yes, the ticker at the top is correct, we have been waiting over a year! I would have thought we would be holding her by now instead of still waiting to see just a picture of her. God is amazing and I am learning more of His faithfulness and love through this process. There have been many days where I have felt hopeless and He has continually sent encouragement my way. Sometimes through friends who are in the same boat across the country, "random" people I meet at the park, or my bible study. I was so touched by what I read in Beth Moore's "Believing God"...

"Perhaps you are adopted, and although you know the mother who raised you, you don't know your biological mother. God certainly did and still does. God knew her intimately enough to choose her womb for the place where He would fearfully and wonderfully fashion you. God hid you in a blanket of soft tissue and bid your heart to beat. For many days He alone knew you existed. You were His secret. God's own skillful hands knit you together, His watchful eyes gazed upon you, and His wise counsel ordained each of your days because you squinted from the light of your first. Long before technology ordered the first sonogram, God watched you suck your thumb in your mother's womb. Amazing isn't it?"
Thanks God, even when I don't feel I am getting closer to her, I know I am getting closer to you and there is no better place on earth.

I Hate Walmart

I went there today (with my three kids six and under) just to get laundry detergent, dishwasher soap, and kids' toothpaste. All things which are too expensive at my local grocery store. I would try Costco but it is a trek across town that I didn't feel up to doing. This is what I hate about it...
1) It is so crowded! We dodged several carts and went down some aisles at an attempt at finding some shortcuts to avoid cart jam ups. I finally saw an opening and went for it, feeling rather proud of my maneuvers. But alas, we found ourselves stuck behind an elderly woman on a motorized scooter going .5 miles an hour. argh! (inhale slowly three times)
2) In addition to the crowds there are huge bins in the middle of the aisles making it impossible to navigate around people. And it's ruthless, everyone is trying to get by because they know if you're not aggressive you're stuck.
3) No employee has ever had a clue of what they were talking about. Standard Response: Shock at why you are asking them information. Standard Answer: "Sorry, it's not my department." I am assuming the yellow smiley faces on their vests stands for clueless.
4) There is about 12 registers in every Wal-mart and only about three open. In addition the clerks always have their lights blinking waiting for the one person that actually knows what they are doing to come up and push one single button.
5) I have three kids with me whining, pushing each other, asking for everything they see, and generally acting like zoo animals.
OK, so #5 has nothing to do with Wal-mart and probably is the cause of all the other frustrations...yet I choose to blame them.

But I continue to go...why?
1) it's so close to my house
2) those dang cheap prices


signed,
dissatisfied consumer for life

Hello! We have been busy here enjoying the sunshine. We got a little pool (10 feet in diameter, over 3 ft deep) that barely fits in our little backyard and the kids have been having fun with it. Dason and Caden are officially swimmers, due in part to bigger pools we have visited. Brett just celebrated his 30th Birthday and I surprised him and took him to San Francisco for the night. It was so relaxing and fun. We walked across the golden gate, had lunch in Sausalito, went to Chinatown, Union Square, ate dinner at Cheesecake Factory overlooking Union Square. Brett insisted on buying the boys fake nunchucks at China Town which of course broke immediately. So being boys, they invented a new use for them where basically Brett and them just whack each other while they wrestle. It's foam and so you can smack someone as hard as you want and it doesn't hurt. Ky loves her little Chinese dress up dress we got her. So fun having a girl after the two boys. Can't wait to see what two girls will be like. Enjoying the summer before we start school for two kids for the first time. (one in first grade, one in Pre-K) As far as the adoption goes, we are really praying that we can bring her home by Christmas. The more time that passes that more unlikely that seems, but we can hope and pray. Just found out we are sixth down on the referral list. So hopefully we can see our baby girl's face for the first time very soon!

Thinking of Her

Today it is rainy and cold, I wonder what the weather is like in Ethiopia now. I guess it would be night time. I think about my daughter... Is she born yet? Is she hungry or cold? It's weird that I feel so connected to an idea of her since I don't even know her face. I know God is leading her to us and so I feel confident in my stored up love for her. He will accomplish amazing things and bring us together. But when? How much longer? Kylin asks about her everyday and I find that in the beginning of our journey it was fun to talk about with her. The longer time goes on the more I feel sad about the questions, "when is she coming?" because they echo my own frustrations. I know that God is preparing us for her and this time is what we need. Yet somehow I hurt for my baby girl whom is just a thought in my head and a longing in my heart. I thank God that He is moving and want to do His perfect will. Someday I can tell her how I loved her before I knew her name or felt her touch, much like I did when I was pregnant with her older brothers and sisters. Until then...

Back here to stay (or at least for awhile)

By the way, I am switching back to this blog because people have had trouble viewing the other one for some reason. So, thanks for sticking with me as I bounce around! I feel like I am always having trouble editing or putting up pictures here but ah well, I'll keep trying...

Our Trip Becomes Two

The Ethiopian government has officially changed the requirements so it looks like we'll be heading their twice. Not what we wanted but we knew all along that we're not in control and there would be many ups and downs. Next month marks a year since we started officially with our agency. Our dossier has been in Ethiopia since September and we hope and pray for a referral any day now. The kids are all eagerly waiting too. They pray for her and talk about her everyday. We just recently celebrated Dason and Ky's birthday, along with Easter. Good times and a reminder to not want to speed anything up but just to enjoy every moment with our family. Brett is a lot more patient than me (shocker I know) throughout this whole process. I love his excitement to meet his new daughter too and can't wait to go over their together. What an amazing journey that will be! Perhaps if you're reading this you may be thinking that maybe God has adoption in your plans as well. Just pray about it and see what happens. Watching God work is one of the most inspiring, amazing things that we can do on this earth. I long to hold our baby girl but I know God will be holding her until we get there and I know He'll keep her safe. Thanks for your prayers!